16 weeks, 6 days

I started crying when...

(Photo of my Mary Blair print, totally unrelated to this post)

1. ...Toy Story 3 was airing on ABC Family and J kept talking through the super sad ending. I just wanted to watch it and cry but he was making comments and being funny and ruining my moment. I didn't have, what I called at the time, "a good cry", and so after the movie ended, I cried because I couldn't cry.

2. ...I thought about J getting hurt on an upcoming hiking trip. I was on the bus at this time.

3. ...we had this playground training session at work. We were learning how to play this new version of tag, and I shouldn't have participated, but I didn't want to look like I wasn't trying to participate. I was trying to be super careful, but I was fucking scared! Then someone bumped into me and I started crying. They weren't even big bumps, or bumps to my belly, but I cried anyway.

4. ...J and I were hanging out and I just "felt sad". For no reason.

5. ...I was trying to tell people the story about being bumped.

6. ...we were at the second session of that playground training, but this time, I sat out during the games. Everyone was just playing the games and the trainer was telling us different variations of it, I thought I was paying attention, not that there was much to pay attention to at the time. Then,  a friend of mine, who was also sitting out because of a bad knee, pulled out her cell phone to show me a school-realted email directed to the both of us. Then my boss walks over and told us to put the phone away because we've checked out and need to participate and pay attention. I felt like I had just gotten scolded like a child and then couldn't stop crying for thirty minutes straight.

7. I slipped and fell on a blob of hand sanitizer at school...in front of my students... I held it together for as long as I could and the moment I was able to step out, I cried in a coworker's classroom.

Oh, hormones.